The hot weather that scorched the rest of the country last week finally caught up with us this week. The humidity has been over 80%, making it feel even hotter, and I've been staying downstairs with the A/C going as much as I can. Life is very different than it was just a month ago. In some ways it feels sort of like a time warp to me: sleep deprivation, spit up, dozens of diaper changes, the daily load of baby laundry, spending a good portion of every day nursing on the couch. Even products that I haven't had to use in months, like Desitin and gas drops, get me wondering, didn't I just get finished doing this? It's weird to be starting all the way back at the beginning again. To make it more challenging, Amanda wants to be held constantly, making it difficult to get anything done. I've noticed that she'll sleep soundly when I'm holding her upright, but often wake up and cry when I set her down. I don't know if it's because of acid reflux or gas, or just because she wants Mommy. Honestly, it doesn't really matter, but I know I try to set her down a lot more than I did with Eva. When Eva was born, I held her constantly, sometimes even through an entire nap, just because I enjoyed it. I'd jump up and get her the minute I heard a whimper. I feel badly that I'm less inclined to hold Amanda as much, or run to her as quickly when she cries, but with a toddler I have more demands on my time. I just don't want Amanda to feel like she has to throw a fit to get my attention, so when she fusses, I try and get to her before she really gets worked up. I need to figure out the Moby Wrap I bought so I can have my hands free. I have a Maya Wrap that I used with Eva, but I wasn't very impressed with how it worked for newborns. It was better for older babies that could sit up and support their own heads.
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