Jealousy

I've been pretty impatient and crabby these past few weeks, especially with Dave. I'd take advantage of any opportunity to leave Eva alone with him while I went on the computer or talked on the phone. I'd get really upset if he got home too late at night or was gone too long surfing or cycling on the weekends. At first I thought it was just pregnancy hormones, but I've finally realized that it was probably jealousy. I've gotten somewhat burnt out with constantly taking care of a toddler, and while Dave gets a break from work on the weekends, it feels like I'm always on duty, and have no other life. Dave takes over with Eva whenever he can, but I guess I was jealous that he could take off surfing or cycling whenever he wanted, while I don't have any real hobbies to escape with. And since most of my young mommy friends moved away and our playgroup dissolved, it's been pretty lonely and isolated at home. I feel the need to get out and make new friends, but it's not easy when most moms I know work. And with another baby coming soon, I won't be getting out much. It was good to finally get to the bottom of the issue. While I don't really have a solution yet, I certainly don't want to take it out on Dave. It's not his fault that I'm needing more adult interaction, and his job is hard enough that he needs his hobbies as a stress outlet, and the exercise is good for him. We've renewed our commitment to having regular date nights, and have started trading babysitting with friends whenever we can. It's nice to get out of the house, just to two of us.