Morning Sickness

The nausea this time around is far worse than it was last time. Never have I thrown up so much for so long a period of time. I was forced to go to urgent care one weekend, and call the on-call OB the next. I tried homeopathic methods, Dramamine, and finally suppositories. The last finally stopped the nausea, but left me with an awful side effect of jittery nervousness, which was almost as bad. I was weak, but couldn't sit still, and couldn't sleep with my heart racing. Several times I've had to ask family or friends to take Eva because I was too sick to care for her. That was the hardest thing to do. For the first time, I was at point of despair, just wishing it could all be over, and hardly caring how. I don't know how I shall bear another six weeks of this before my first trimester is over. Between sickness and a malfunctioning PDA, updating this baby journal had been a real challenge. I hardly ever make it to the computer now, even to check e-mail. My OB finally prescribed a nausea pill to take every eight hours. Turns out it’s the same medicine they prescribe for chemo patients! It works great, but it’s expensive: $30 for only 8 tablets, and that’s after insurance! So I’ll have to save it for the days when I’m really bad.